Sometimes I stumble upon poems and stories that make me think on the website, where I have an account One of these poems is “Prayer”, by Sylvia Woolf (obviously not her real name), and I’d like to share it with you. It’s kind of long, but I thought it was well worth the time it took to read it.

With your narrow shoulder breadth

Across the waves of heads turned to the front

In the teapot tempest holder of the chapel

As we all sang a rousing hymn.

It’s all I know, is what your expression apologized

With to me, as I imagined to hear you sigh.

You were raised on this philosophy baked into

Your crustless bread: the tide will always turn

As sure as your faithful cheek in religious theory

And so this is the highest compliment that you can give me:

I am at one with God, you say, even if I don’t know it yet.

And as the words tangle from your mouth

A wave of peace crashes within the seascape of your eye

As you will me forcefully to see, to see this spiritual

Side of me that you somehow think is there

Despite how I’ve confessed to you I lack

The fiber of a soul to believe in such things.

But you fondly sketch an image of me teaching chapel school,

Illuminating children in a way you wish you had been,

To question, to challenge, to search with a burning urgency

For the Truth, whatever that may be.

I nod, politely, swoon a little at your sincerity

Before bursting your pretty little painted bubble

With a too harsh retort about Bible beaters

And, in an attempt to keep things light, remind

Your falling face of a comment you made long ago:

That you answered in all earnestness upon my query

That according to your laws, I was, indeed on my way

To Hell. But I could not regret my probing more

Once I see the weariness your expression abruptly bears,

And you apologize too profusely for my guilt to hear,

And respond that you could not have been more wrong:

That I am the most righteous person, perhaps, that you have ever known

Despite my foreignness to churches and my ever-questing heart

And somehow, still with Jesus in your eye, you overlook

My sins, my girls, my suicides, my agnosticism and

Inform me solemnly that I will find my road to Heaven

In my own time, even if I cannot see the way.

I’m not sure if I want to laugh at your gravity,

Your childlike guarantee that God is especially fond of me,

Or want to throw my arms about your skinny form,

So uncomfortable to lean upon, with no softness anywhere—

But you were not built for comfort, in body or in view,

And that, of course, is what I love about you,

That you take yourself and me this seriously,

To puff out your breath upon the shattering sky

And stand back to watch the cloud that filled your lungs

Crystallize between us on the wintry air

Before staking out a careful reply to my inquiry

With more faith than I could ever contain.

You got kicked out of Sunday school

For insisting that Gandhi went to heaven

With that same passionate assurance

That you unconsciously wield so disarmingly now

And I long for that much surety in anything

Instead of my uncertain contradictory self.

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