So the Center funding my fellowship has regular fellow’s workshops in which each fellow presents part of their research to the other fellows and receives feedback. One week later, it’s their turn to present to an wider academic audience in the form of a public talk. Best part? Lunch is included. (Yes, I like my academics with a side of food, coffee, or both, whenever possible.)
I generally have a hard time commenting on others’ work, especially in this forum where half of the fellows are faculty members and I’m just a grad student, and they’re working in other disciplines, anyway. This doesn’t seem to stop others, so maybe it’s more my low-ish self esteem, or the learned behavior to defer to others because I’m young and female, or just my introverted self that likes to observe groups rather than participate? Probably a mix of all of the above. For some reason, although I have no trouble speaking up in class, or being authoritative while teaching, in every other environment, I kind of assume my comments aren’t relevant. Sigh. (I know, I know. I’m working on it.)
Anyway, Tuesday’s workshop and lunch talk were on topics I’m pretty much unfamiliar with. (The one was on Milton, the other on something philosophical that included probability distributions and you all know how I get around numbers.) I was really glad they had ordered Cafe Rio for lunch, so at least I had something to distract me from my confusion..now if only Cafe Rio helped against imposter syndrome.
Any of you ever face this? What did you do to make it better?